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{The Ordinary Moments} #32 - Jammy Kisses

11/16/2015

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Monday morning at my desk, heavy heart, lukewarm tea in hand. So many conflicting emotions. Realising, trying to internalise, how lucky I am. I am not in Paris, I am not in Beirut or Baghdad or Damascus. I’m here, safe and sound.

How to deal with the shame of being safe? With the guilt of bringing a child into world so smarting, ugly, destructive? How not to be overwhelmed by the hypocrisy oozing like a festering sore all around us, nor by the sheer futility. How not to become destructive too, and give in to the impulse to draw up walls, shut out those I love, rip up what once seemed worth my time. What is worth my time?

And then I’m reminded by a simple gesture from a tiny boy:

a jammy kiss

A sticky little smacker from a sticky little boy, given on an ordinary Monday over a breakfast of bleary eyes and cheesy tunes on the radio.

Maybe this is how to deal with it. By writing what I want to write, by making, seeking inspiration, forging connections. By treasuring all his jammy kisses while he still wants to give them and to fight for his place in a world that sometimes, just sometimes, is as overwhelmingly beautiful as it is ugly.

And by refusing to batten down the hatches, instead leaving my heart as raw and vulnerable as it needs to be to see the only the suffering and not the politics or the ideology.
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So it’s business as usual on a Monday morning, it has to be business as usual: writing patterns, crunching numbers, faffing about on Instagram and waiting for His Stickiness to return from preschool. And also gathering up old coats for this initiative for refugees, because the world still is what it is. Because there is lots of darkness, the heaviness still remains, but there is always something - or someone - worth carrying on for.
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Carie @ Space for the Butterflies link
11/16/2015 02:22:08 pm

I don't think we should ever feel guilty for being safe, but we do have to acknowledge our safety and the values we hold dear and let our consciousness of them guide how we as Europe respond. My fear is that in responding we change our essential selves which would mean that they have won.

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Eline @ Pasta & Patchwork link
11/26/2015 09:54:07 am

Unfortunately I think it is impossible not to change, but perhaps it's an opportunity to try to change for the better. To be more compassionate, more accepting, more courageous in the face of such blatant attempts to get us to do the opposite.

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Seychellesmama link
11/17/2015 11:22:26 am

Ooo I had goosebumps reading this, such a powerful post. Little out of the blue kisses from our little ones is definitely a wonderful reminder of what is beautiful in this world. X

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Eline @ Pasta & Patchwork link
11/26/2015 09:56:00 am

Golly, I don't think anyone has ever called one of my posts "powerful"! Thanks my dear, and where indeed would we be without little out of the blue kisses. I imagine Arthur's are just as cute and sticky!

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